I hate this feeling.
I'm not quite sure what it is or how to explain it. It just feels ugly. Deep in my chest. It's heavy.
Maybe it's a bit of insecurity, mixed with disappointment and uncertainty? I don't know. It's just been weighing on me all day, pushing me in to depression. I'm trying to fight it... but it's hard to fight when you don't really know what you are fighting.
It makes me want to quit... but I don't even know what I would be quitting! It's weird. Am I confusing you?? Because it has me confused.
Maybe I just need to take a nap.