ANGER: a feeling of great annoyance or antagonism as the result of some real or supposed grievance; rage; wrath.
I. am. angry.
I'm angry that my marriage isn't what it should be.
Angry that porn has infected it.
Angry that I can't move past it.
I'm angry at the women who will take their clothes off for anyone.
Angry that they don't consider the marriages they may wreck.
Or the people that will be hurt on the other side of it.
I'm angry at the men who will continue to look at porn and buy sex from women.
Angry that they will treat women as objects to fulfill their selfish need.
Angry that they take advantage.
I'm angry at the deeper problem with porn... human trafficking.
Because I don't believe for a moment that all those women in porn actually WANT to be doing that or CHOOSE to be doing that. There is a great link between porn and human trafficking.
I'm just angry.
I'm stuck in this anger.
I know anger is part of the grieving process and that I need to process through this. Because I am grieving. I'm grieving the loss of a good marriage. The loss of trust.
I can still smile, laugh and enjoy life most days. I'm not faking those things. But underneath it all is just this constant, simmering anger.
I need to do something about this.
Help me Jesus.